So today's post is something that I had been thinking about long and hard.
and I feel that I should share this out even if its nothing much. (I hope). Bare with me here. Its pretty much a very intimate thing, so....yeaaahhh.....(and a little awkward too~) hahaha
A couple of weeks ago I did a Breast Self-Examination (BSE, for short) and I found a small lump that was never there before. Obviously worried, I told mum and we went for an appointment with the oncologist (someone who specialises in cancer) on 22nd July 2014.
We went to the clinic in the afternoon and I had to fill in a few forms, as it was my 1st ever checkup to an oncologist. After all the forms were filled, we waited for awhile and was later called into the room. Mum was there with me the whole time. The Dr asked me a few basic questions about me like how I discovered it, the size of the lump and about my family's history of breast cancer (which btw, I have no blood-related family members with history of breast cancer).
After the short interview we went on to manual checkup by the dr. had to raise my arms a few times before we got on to the manual check. However, instead of finding just 1 suspicious lump, she found 2 suspicious lumps. I was quiet for a moment hearing her say that. And had to let it sink in for awhile. 2 suspicious not-supposed-to-be there lumps... after the manual checks, we continued on to ultra sound to visually see the suspicious lumps. Lo and behold! I saw the two lumps she referred to on the screen in front of me. It was a very speechless moment for myself. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know how to react.
I cant even explain how I felt. Even now, Im still unsure how I feel about the discovery.
The next step was to take a few samples to determine what those suspicious lumps were. if I'm not mistaken, a biopsy? I don't know what was the full name of the procedure but she pretty much used a needle to extract a sample from each lump. It wasn't painful. It was like getting a vaccination. only the needle went in deeper and looked a lot scarier. ( i covered my eyes about 70% of the time, so Im just assuming haha)
Anyways, a sample from each lump was taken and sent to the pathologist to determine what it is. According to my oncologist, it didn't look dangerous. But we wouldn't know for sure what it is yet till the results come out from the lab. Hopefully it'll be good news.
On a happier tone, 1st of Syawal is finally arriving! and that means its almost the end of Ramadhan (boohoo....) I lost 2 kg from fasting and i sleep earlier now too. I cant wait to eat all the yummy Raya goodies. We'll be having briyani, lemang, ketupat, rendang...aaaahhh~ I'm pretty sure I'll be gaining back the 2kg I lost after the 1st week of Syawal -_- hahaha
I guess, thats it for now!
Selamat Hari Raya,
Sarah
