The dawn of the beginning of the rise of the final semester

Where did my holiday go??

HAHAHA I just found photos of myself when I was frizzy haired and had really bad taste in handbags. -_-

So right, where were we? Ah, yes....my semester has just started and this will be the final of all my semesters (inshallah). The final hurdle. The final bump on the road to my degree. The final semester where I can call myself as an architecture student. let alone a student. (until I decide to further my studies. which I will)

Does this mean I've figured everything out already? Does this mean I'm capable of making rational decisions as an adult? Does this mean I'm ready for the working world?

My answer to you is : honestly...I don't think I am. I don't think I am ready for whats out there. I don't think I'm capable of making rational decisions yet. I can't even decide on what to wear for tomorrow's studio trip. (no no, I have decided actually hahaha)

I am still learning. I am still evolving. I am still figuring things out. Apart of me knows what I want to achieve...yet, apart of me still feels like a little child scared and unsure of everything. 

Is this normal? Is this what other people go through too? Did those before me go through the same thing? Why is it so difficult to find the answer to what I really want?

Apart of me wants to get dressed up and grow up & become an adult (or at least figure out how to be an adult) and apart of me just wants to stay in bed all day and all night. 

Growing up is so difficult. And sometimes I can't believe things have changed so much since I first started writing in this blog. 

I guess eventually I will learn to grow up. I will adapt to the new world I am about to step into. I will welcome this new environment into my life and let go of the past.

xx,

Sarah

I'm probably gonna read back this blog post and laugh at myself.